Recap
“I have never been so happy since I came to this world, probably because I have always been controlled by others and have never done anything I wanted to. Ah Ci, I have a secret that I want to tell you.”
He touched his forehead against the little doll and his tone gradually became softer, “I’m just telling you this, don’t tell anyone else. You… don’t stay away from me because of this.”
Touching Ji Huaizhe’s eyebrows, Chu Shici knew that Zhe-ge was going to share the reason for his sudden drop in vitality with his little doll.
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The fire was raging, and thick smoke hung over the forest, blocking out all light. The dark woods made the surroundings appear like night time.
The sorcerer grabbed his messy robe, held his wand tightly to maintain the water shield, and walked quickly through the forest.
Time was running out, so he told the little doll sitting on his shoulder the secret buried deep in his heart as he hurried to the roadside.
“When the teacher passed away, I couldn’t feel anything. Looking at her body, I couldn’t cry.”
Ji Huaizhe’s voice was very soft, with a bit of confusion in his eyes, “It’s not just that time, I’ve been pretending.”
Chu Shici didn’t understand. “What do you mean by pretending? Pretending to cry?”
Ji Huaizhe pursed his lips and continued talking without answering his question.
The more Chu Shici listened, the more his chest felt tighter.
Rather than saying that Ji Huaizhe’s vitality plummeted due to the impact of a specific event, it was more accurate to say that he was driven crazy by this world.
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Ji Huaizhe confessed to the little doll that he was a traveler from another world.
He originally thought it was a random transmigration, but now he realized that he was summoned by the old witch.
Before traveling to this world, he had always been a normal person. In other words, he was normal before he was taken to the Sorcerer Academy.
Ji Huaizhe woke up and appeared in the eastern forest. Just as he was about to die in the woods, the vice-principal appeared and saved him.
He was grateful to the old witch and trusted her deeply.
On his first day at the Academy, all the teachers and students of the school held a grand welcome ceremony for him.
The vice-principal covered his eyes with a black cloth, led him to the high platform, and stuffed an ax into his hand.
When Ji Huaizhe raised the question, the vice-principal explained, ‘You can only become a sorcerer apprentice by becoming a believer of the Goddess of Death. You are an orphan without parents, so we have to change the tradition for you.’
The old witch told him that there were three prey in front of him. These were the ingredients specially prepared by the kitchen for the welcome ceremony. He is a new student, and according to the rules, he has to kill the ingredients.
At that time, Ji Huaizhe knew little about this world. There were many people in the Academy and they all appeared warm and lively.
He had a good impression of his peers, so he didn’t think much about it.
Ji Huaizhe had never killed an animal before, so he thought that since he had to kill it anyway, it would be better to kill the animal with one blow to reduce its pain.
With the help of the vice-principal, he walked up to the prey, raised his ax and struck it hard.
All the teachers and students in the school applauded. Amidst the applause and shouts, Ji Huaizhe swung his ax and chopped all three prey to death.
The smell of blood filled the air, making Ji Huaizhe slightly uneasy.
As he was chopping, he was still thinking, why is this animal so big? Is it beef or pork that we are going to eat tonight?
Since no cries were heard, they must have blocked the prey’s mouth.
When the black cloth on his face was removed, Ji Huaizhe finally saw clearly what he had just been chopping.
A middle-aged couple and a child of 18 or 19 years old were tied to a pillar and their mouths were sewn shut with stitches.
The mother and child were dead, and only the father was still conscious.
The man was dying, his bloodshot eyes staring straight at him. His eyes were filled with pain, panic, and lingering hatred.
The two people’s eyes met, and Ji Huaizhe’s mind went blank. He subconsciously looked around, asking others to help him.
His guilty and uneasy eyes swept over every sorcerer present, but he only saw excited smiles on everyone’s faces.
The vice-principal nodded approvingly to him, then picked up the dropped ax and stuffed it into his hand again. She took his hand and led him to chop off the man’s head.
Looking at the corpse in front of him, Ji Huaizhe was confused the whole time.
He looked at the old witch blankly, “They are human beings.”
The vice-principal smiled kindly at him and said, ‘No, no, Huaizhe, they are food. If you don’t believe me, ask others.’
Surrounded by young and energetic apprentices filled with smiling and gleeful expressions on their faces.
Several strong sorcerers lifted him up and threw him high into the air.
‘We have the Child of God in our Academy!!! No one will dare to bully us again! Ji Huaizhe, our Child of God!!!’
‘Ji, you looked so cool when you just killed the prey! Can you teach me if you know how to fight in close combat?’
‘Are you uncomfortable? Why are you shaking all the time? Are you still concerned about those kills?’
Until the welcome party started, Ji Huaizhe still didn’t get out of his dazed state.
What he saw before him was very different from what he had known for more than twenty years.
There are more than a thousand teachers and students in the school, old and young, male and female, all of them are so vivid and looked extremely normal.
And all these people were telling him that he did well.
Dishes arrive one after another, butterfinger, pan-fried brisket, roasted whole leg.
Before all the dishes were served, Ji Huaizhe vomited.
As he retched, everyone around him looked at him strangely. It seemed incredibly strange not to eat these extravagant dishes.
Although the people around him tried to persuade him, Ji Huaizhe still didn’t eat.
He sat blankly in his chair, watching the others feast.
In addition to the slaughter of the ingredients and the grand feast, there were other welcome performances that night.
Candlelighters, Skinning Contest.
The bonfire lit up the night sky, and the entire atmosphere was lively and peaceful.
Ji Huaizhe’s brain could not process the overwhelming conflicting emotions swirling inside of him and was completely shut down at this time.
He was like a puppet, being pulled along by the other apprentices to dance around the fire. The cries of the people in the fire was the only accompaniment to this dance.
The screams rang in Ji Huaizhe’s eardrums. He broke away from the other apprentice’s hand and rushed into the fire to save them.
But after running a few steps, he was held down by the apprentices.
Fire engulfed the person. Ji Huaizhe raised his head and stared blankly at the charred corpse, a buzzing rang indefinitely in his ears.
He wanted to interrogate these lunatics and ask them what was wrong with them to do such a thing.
But before Ji Huaizhe could speak, a little witch of fifteen or sixteen years old next to him looked at him in confusion: “Child of God, why are you running into the fire? It will burn you.’
Ji Huaizhe pointed at the charred corpse: ‘You are killing people, you are a bunch of lunatics!’
The crowd gathered and surrounded him. More than a thousand people looked at him suspiciously.
From time to time, they would whisper to their companions and point at him secretly. The look in their eyes was like looking at a mentally ill person who had escaped from the hospital.
Some people also worriedly asked him why he behaved so strangely and whether he was sick.
Finally, the vice principal helped him out and took him back to the teachers’ dormitory to let him have a good rest.
She pulled out a cookbook for him and told him that many races in this world eat people. There is no difference between humans and other animals here. Regardless of high or low, they are all a kind of food.
The academy is located deep within the Erya Mountains, and there are many monsters in it. He, an ordinary person, will not be able to survive outside.
Most importantly, they needed him.
The old witch told Ji Huaizhe about the history of hundreds of years of witch hunts led by the Saint-Cherry royal family, and shoved the responsibility of saving the sorcerers directly on his head.
Ji Huaizhe wanted to refuse, but the old witch begged him while wiping her tears.
He was soft-hearted, and the vice-principal was his savior despite his age.
The two talked for a while, but under the vice principal’s persuasion, Ji Huaizhe finally changed his mind.
He took over the responsibility of the Child of God and officially became a sorcerer apprentice.
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The sorcerers didn’t always have a human to eat. Ji Huaizhe didn’t receive such great mental stimulation for some time after.
As the days passed, he gradually integrated into the group with the help of several of his peers.
The school occasionally improves the students’ food, making finger soup or eyeball pudding for the students sometimes.
Things like killing always come up as a topic among the apprentices.
When two apprentices quarreled, they would clamor to drown each other in the pond.
The young couple showed their affection, and while kissing, they said they would burn their lover to ashes and mix the ashes in water and drink it so that they could become one.
Sorcerers use skeletons as decorations, and their evil dolls were guilty of heinous crimes during their lifetimes.
At first, Ji Huaizhe felt uncomfortable and often felt nauseous.
But after staying in this environment for a long time, he subconsciously began to get used to his current life, and his aesthetics also went astray.
He made himself a goat-headed skull mask, and people around him said he looked handsome.
Everyone praised him. Looking at the gloomy and pale skull in the mirror, Ji Huaizhe also felt good-looking for some reason.
He doesn’t know when he gradually stopped rejecting human meals, he also felt faintly excited when he smelled the blood and saw a corpse.
Cannibalism has become the norm and killing is praised. Ji Huaizhe lives here and constantly accepts positive feedback from such activities.
For a while, several adventurers accidentally entered the Academy while exploring the Erya Mountains. He was hung up by the apprentices and roasted to death bit by bit like barbecue.
Ji Huaizhe watched from the side, but he did not attempt to save anyone this time.
Listening to the screams, all he could think about was, luckily there were only three people and not much meat. Otherwise, if there are too many portions per person, there will be fewer normal dishes in the canteen.
He still hasn’t crossed the threshold in his heart and doesn’t participate in eating people. He still hopes there will be fried eggs and tomato noodles for dinner tonight.
When Ji Huaizhe was thinking about how many fried eggs he should have for dinner, an adventurer suddenly roared at them.
‘You crazy people! Abnormal! I just hate that the Hundred Years Witch Hunt didn’t start sooner! You bunch of man-eating monsters deserve death!!!’
It didn’t take long for him to stop yelling.
The apprentices began to share the barbecue and gave Ji Huaizhe a grilled right hand.
He gave the right hand to Lilith and looked at the little witch biting the fingers. Ji Huaizhe fell into deep thought.
He felt that as a normal person, he should be furious at the adventurer’s death.
He tried hard for a long time, but he couldn’t become angry.
A few days later, Ji Huaizhe was betrayed by his friends, drugged, and almost violated.
According to his original temperament, he should feel extremely insulted. Once the effects of the medicine wear off, he should want to kill those people immediately.
But in the end he just let them go lightly.
Ji Huaizhe didn’t want to admit it, but he was actually not too angry. The level of his anger was much lighter than what he had imagined.
He began to wonder what had gone wrong.
As he reflected on himself, Ji Huaizhe found that he seemed to be sick.
The pain of others will no longer make him feel pity. Even if someone cries and begs him, he will not have any intense mood fluctuations.
Everyone around him was messing around, and Lilith was often sleeping with various sorcerers and witches.
Sometimes when Ji Huaizhe takes a walk in the forest in the evening, he can see many pairs of underwear on the ground. A few steps further is the area of an extreme multiplayer sports event.
Ji Huaizhe always receives invitations, and many people wanted to have sex with him.
He sometimes thought that it would be okay to sleep with them and experience that kind of happiness once.
Even when he first discovered that Lilith had given him the love potion, he had an urge to indulge himself.
He could pretend not to know and drink the potion. In this way, when he allows himself to let loose, he will no longer feel condemned in his heart.
Fortunately, his morals which had been steadfast in the previous twenty years have not completely collapsed. Ji Huaizhe still thinks that there are some things that he should not do.
He began to miss his past, normal self, although he couldn’t explain what was so good about being normal.
In order to become normal, Ji Huaizhe started acting.
Whenever someone invited him over and made a frivolous move towards him, he would repeat the word ‘disgusting’ over and over again in his mind, with a look of extreme disgust on his face.
The effect is not very good, but it is still useful.
As time passed, Ji Huaizhe would feel nauseated whenever someone looked at him with lustful eyes.
Seeing that acting worked, Ji Huaizhe worked harder.
Those sorcerers wanted to sleep with him while Lilith wanted to sell him out for money, he had no real friends for a long time.
Ji Huaizhe no longer insisted on integrating into the group. He pretended to be the normal person he remembered and became an oddball in the Academy.
He showed resistance to meals made of human flesh, refused to accept any invitations to multiplayer sports events, and showed an uncomfortable look when he heard other sorcerers discussing topics related to killing.
If any poor soul was caught by a sorcerer for dinner, he would secretly attempt to rescue them.
Just like normal people do.
Ji Huaizhe had been pretending for so long that he couldn’t tell which part of him was real.
He is confused.
Seeing those tragic deaths before his eyes, his head sent out signals of joy, but a few tears flowed from his eyes.
Ji Huaizhe wanted to find someone to help him, but he didn’t know who to ask.
Sometimes, he feels that he has gone crazy.
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Chu Shici gently patted Ji Huaizhe’s shoulder and called Zhe-ge in a low voice.
Ji Huaizhe lowered his head, his thick eyelashes trembling slightly, and the teardrops on them reflected the firelight.
He pursed his lips hard, and his already pale lips became even more bloodless.
After walking a certain distance, Ji Huaizhe was exhausted.
The trees in this area had burned out. He used magic to extinguish the fire nearby and stood in the open space to rest with his wand.
Chu Shici followed his arm and ran to his hand. He put his feet up and raised his hands to give him a hug.
Holding the doll in one hand, Ji Huaizhe did not hold Chu Shici up in front of him as usual.
He closed his eyes and the tears wet his cheeks.
Ji Huaizhe made no sound or expression when he cried, the tears kept rolling down.
He seemed to have suppressed it for a long time and cried for a long time before he spoke with a trembling voice: “Actually, I chose you to be my evil spirit servant in the first place just to make myself appear normal.”
Ji Huaizhe paused and calmed his breathing, “Ah Ci, I’ve let you down.”
Chu Shici raised his head and looked at him tenderly, “Zhe-ge, do you really think so?”
Ji Huaizhe pursed his lips tightly, a trace of doubt flashing in his eyes.
Chu Shici held his chin, “I feel like you want to choose me because you really regard me as a friend.”
“I do not……”
“You do.”
System, who was watching the excitement, was kicked by Chu Shici and helped Chu Shici pull his soul out.
The soul of the blond man emerged from the voodoo doll, floated in front of Ji Huaizhe and gave him a comforting smile.
“You can’t see it, but I can see it clearly. When we were together, your eyes were always shining. When I was injured, the anxiety in your eyes was very real. Surely, Zhe-ge, you don’t think your acting skills are that good that even slight nuances are acted out so precisely, right?
You really care about me. Don’t deny it in a hurry. Zhe-ge, you have cured yourself long ago.”
Ji Huaizhe said nothing, with a look of blank confusion on his face.
Chu Shici can understand that he felt conflicted.
“Zhe-ge, you are just making yourself confused. Calm down and think about it. You are much stronger than you think. You have neither become a cannibal nor have you ever allowed others to touch and insult you as they please. In this harsh world Being able to stick to one’s true nature despite the circumstances is very admirable in itself.”
Ji Huaizhe frowned and hesitated for a moment, “When my teacher died, I was pretending to cry. After the apprentice was bitten and eaten by the shadow, I felt excited when I saw his body.”
He raised his hands to hug the soul in front of him, raised his head and whispered softly: “I shouldn’t have felt that way.”
Without the spell, a soul cannot touch a living person.
Chu Shici tapped the tip of the man’s nose with his fingertips, “What shouldn’t you? Why shouldn’t you? Even if you didn’t know what the vice-principal was doing to you behind your back at that time, couldn’t you feel how she usually treated you?
Zhe-ge, you have deceived yourself. You are so smart, you must have noticed that she has ulterior motives for you. But you think that normal people should respect their teacher and repay the saviors, so when you look at her, you deliberately suppress your negative emotions. Push it all down.”
Chu Shici sighed softly, “You keep telling yourself, ‘I want to respect her,’ but in fact, Zhe-ge, you have long been suspicious of her, otherwise you wouldn’t have been so easily persuaded by me.”
Seeing that Ji Huaizhe still didn’t believe him, he gave an example.
“If I died in the Sorcerer Academy, would you suppress the urge for revenge and run away to study for a few months before coming back?”
Ji Huaizhe didn’t answer, and Chu Shici could tell his answer from his expression.
Zhe-ge is very stubborn and has a temper.
It is never too late for a gentleman to take revenge after ten years, but that does not apply to Zhe-ge. If he is really maddened, a gentleman takes revenge from morning to night.
Chu Shici coaxed Ji Huaizhe to cast a soul-touching spell.
After hearing Zhe-ge’s confession, Chu Shici’s heart, which had been hanging, was relieved.
Since Ji Huaizhe didn’t truly trust the old witch, it was only normal that he couldn’t cry.
Chu Shici felt that Zhe-ge probably wanted to slip away from the Academy. It was just that no one gave him a chance to step down from the podium, and he didn’t dare to abandon his ‘savior’ for fear that it would be wrong.
Now that the old witch is dead, the little doll has found a suitable reason for him.
Ji Huaizhe finally broke free from the shackles of his duty and successfully took the first step in the opposite direction of the Sorcerer Academy.
But Chu Shici didn’t understand one thing.
Zhe-ge has not been in this world for long.
In his impression, Zhe-ge should be a very determined person. Logically speaking, the influence of the environment on him should not be so great, but it appears that the influence was so great that it almost drove him crazy.
This is not logical.
Moreover, the questions in Chu Shici’s heart have not been completely answered. Behind the sudden drop in Zhe-ge’s vitality, there must be a reason that even Zhe-ge himself does not know.
Ji Huaizhe’s eyes glazed over, it seemed that he was still processing what the little doll said to him.
After casting the spell on himself, he was about to ask the little doll what he wanted to do when Chu Shici ran directly into his arms.
He held Ji Huaizhe’s face: “You said that you tried your best and now feel disgusted by simple close contact. Zhe-ge, do you feel disgusted when I hold you like this?”
Ji Huaizhe didn’t speak or resist. He lowered his eyes and stood quietly.
Chu Shici raised his head and kissed the corner of his mouth, “How about this, Zhe-ge?”
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